Hi dear followers. First of all, I am truly sorry for being absent for literally ages and I’m thankful for every single of you who actually didn’t unfollow or even left a message in my ask, you can’t imagine how much that actually means :) Thank you, you guys are truly adorable! Second, the reason I’ve been absent was because of a lot of negative things been going on. Personal things which leaned me to go through a lot of rough things like trying to commit suicide and depressions. I’ve lost a lot of friends and been alone for a very long time. As you see, a lot of things been going on. Today I had an emotional break down and a person came over which I didn’t have much contact with but she build me up so much, she just sat there and listened. That was exactly what I needed. When I stopped talking she showed me a video which took 25 minutes of my life and is going to change my attitude towards myself and the way I live. 

I’m fully motivated to get back on a healthy and happy lifestyle and this time I’m really gonna reach that because you know what? I deserve, I can and I will. Just like all of you do!

Thanks for still following me, I wish the all of my best wishes! <3

Summer is coming.. I honestly need to lose 18 lbs until June. Is that possible? It is right? Oh, god. I’ll hit the gym every day and try to eat as healthy as I can. Oh man, I really need to do it this time!